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[ Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2003 ] [ 1:54 p.m. ] [ "You Gave Me a Reason to Smile...Why did you Walk Away?" ]
Oh my so much has happened err well ok not really but enough. First Carl and I argued like mad crazy because I came clean bout Rory, then the next day things go completely frickin crazy in RoryLand. I won't explain it if you wanna know go read my DJ My Deadjournal. So to make the long story short "she" is suppose to be gone. So Monday he went to his cousins house and we fricken talked for 4 hours. I mean holy shite, I have never talked to someone consistantly for 4 hours. I mean the hole time we are typing and typing I was talking to no one else just him. Wow! it was hot. Yesterday was shit nothng happened. Nicky and I went to Wal*Mart to get christmas presents yay!. Then we got chinese...Rock!! hehe we ate then later on we watched White Christmas Awww. He never came on last night (he's a liar). OH well I love him anyways. I just want to talk to him to see whats going on and stuff...plus I want to call him tonight :)...Lord I love hearing his voice.

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Lyrics of the Day

Last Days of Summer-Silverstein

The bright light beams from her eyes like broken glass.

Or a broken heart, who would have guessed?

You’d leave me here.

Beneath my eyes I feel the tears, I hold back.

I won’t leave, leave this way again.

I won't leave this way.

As my legs, they start to shake, I feel nothing.

I wanted you (I wanted you), I needed you, but you weren’t there for me this time.

(There for me)

I won’t leave, leave this way again.

I won't leave this way.

You that I loved, that I needed. (You weren’t there.)

Not this time.

You.

What can I do?

I was supposed to love you.

What can I say?

I won’t leave.

What can I do?

I was supposed to love you.

I cannot feel.

You.

Last breath I feel, warm air intake.

The last summer’s day, last one I take. (For you)

I won’t leave, leave this way. (I won't leave)

Lost it all, all for you. (I won't leave)

When the shadows beam, misery remains.

I won’t leave this time.

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Whats Playing: "On Stars Our Dreams are Born" Kite Flying Society atm...Total it is KFS and Scarlet Tied (old stuff haha that you can't have)

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Survey Time:

Best TV show of 2003: ummm hmmm Queer as Folk was awesome this year

Best Movie of 2003: Finding Nemo

Best Actor of 2003: umm I dunno I don't do that whole actor thing...Colin Firth

Best Actress of 2003: Reese Witherspoon

Best Song of 2003: ohhh best song I heard was "Autumns Monologue" FATA

Best CD of 2003: Hmmm Coheed and Cambria maybe

Worst TV Show of of 2003: Most of them really...anything on MTV

Worst Movie of 2003: haha I haven't seen enough movies to tell ya

Worst Actor of 2003: umm that one person

Worst Actress of 2003: uhh her

Worst Song of 2003: I dunno I don't listen to bad music

Worst CD of 2003: Umm that I bought was the spiderman soundtrack

Rate This Year 1-10: 7 1/2

In one word, how would you describe this year?: interesting

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Taking Back Sunday vs. Brand New: Brand New

The Mars Volta vs. Coheed & Cambria: Coheed & Cambria

The Used vs. A Static Lullaby: haha right A Static Lullaby

Thursday vs. My Chemical Romance: Thursday

The Clash vs. The Distillers: The Clash

Motion City Soundtrack vs. Something Corporate: hmm SoCo I think

Fall Out Boy vs. The Starting Line: The Starting Line

Anti-Flag vs. Sparta: Sparta

Count the Stars vs. Matchbook Romance: Never really heard either so I'll say Matchbook Romance

Saves the Day vs. Mest: Saves the Day. cute cute boys.

Rancid vs. NoFx: couldn't tell you I don't listen to either

The Early November vs. Yellowcard: eep The Early November

From Autumn to Ashes vs. Glassjaw: FATA baby...haha No contest

Alkaline Trio vs. Vendetta Red: Alkaline Trio

Blink 182 vs. CKY: Blink 182

Finch vs. Thrice: hmm not a big fan of either but I'll say Finch

Saosin vs. Atreyu: Atreyu

Get Up Kids vs. Less Than Jake: eww I"m sorry but no

Rufio vs. Slick Shoes: Rufio!!

Senses Fail vs. Story of the Year: Senses Fail

About you

Whats your middle name?: lynn

Whats your zodiac sign?: pisces

Describe your personality..: umm different

Whats your fave NBA team/player?: eep you pick one for me

Sexual Preferences

Whats the best thing about the opposite sex?: that they are sexy beasts...well some of them anyways

What person do you think is the definition of perfection?: oh shit Rory no doubt

Hairy chest or butt baby smooth?: I prefer smooth though some hair is hot

Are you a virgin, if so, how long will you wait?: no

What's better girth or length?: girth eh? girth though a tiny p isn't the coolest right

Oral or Penetration?: Pentration for me ty

silence or screaming?: screaming baby

cuddling after sex or kickin dat azz out?: cuddlin

French kiss or smack?: french kiss

Da Social Scene

How often do you go out?: not often thanks for reminding me

Do you flirt with the guys/girls there?: where is there? and yes I flirt

Whats your best pick up line?: riight

Ever gone out alone?: no

do you accept drinks from guys/girls who you dont find attractive?: umm ok I don't get drinks like that

Are you a wallflower or dirty dancer?: umm wall flower

Do you stay untill the club/party ends?: uck I don't really go to clubs dude

First one there or fashionably late?: right no time

Do you party in VIP?: your a status whore aren't you

Do you take guys/girls home afterwards?: yes cause I'm all about being the whore

Choose one

Neptunes or Timbaland?: excuse me?

Chocolate or Vanilla?: choco.

Earache or Toothache?: oh yes I want to choose out of that one thanks

White or Black?: black

Thanksgiving or Christmas?: christmas

Brother or Sister?: sister

email or snail mail?: snail though no one ever does it anymore

Erik Estrada or TrevorPenick?: I got no clue

Night or Day?: night

Constipation or Diarreah? oh wow your good

Fish or Chicken?: chicken

Ice Cream or Yogurt: ice cream

Cereal or Cereal Bars?: Mmm both

I just wanna know if you've

ever gotten high?: yes and never again

had a threesome?: not yet

stolen gas?: no

cheated on your bf or gf?: depends on your def. of cheating

farted really loud in public?: hahah maybe

cursed in front of your mother?: always

stabbed yourself in the gums with a fork, spoon toothpick..etc?: I might have

ever been to TEXAS: haha no.

do you want to?: hmm not really

"You Gave Me a Reason to Smile...Why did you Walk Away?" - Wednesday, Dec. 10, 2003

The whore - Monday, May. 10, 2004

Like a Cast Shadow - Friday, Feb. 06, 2004

"Wash My Mind, Destroy the Me That Live Inside" - Saturday, Jan. 31, 2004

"I Tore My Heart Out For You" - Sunday, Jan. 18, 2004

"And This Nothing Last Forever" - Wednesday, Jan. 14, 2004